oh me oh my

You guys. My last post was titled, "where have i been?" and that post was OVER A YEAR AND A HALF AGO. And my post before that was a year prior. My word, did my hiatus last a long time. Not that anyone noticed or cared, but I've been saying for a while I'd like to get back into it. If for nothing else but a way to brain dump my thoughts and feelings, and it can be fun to go back and read through it all. You know, that whole see where you've been and where you're going kinda thing.

Anyway, a lot has happened since that last post. I don't even really know where to start, and clearly I'll need multiple posts to recap so it's not one ginourmous post haha. Y'all know how wordy I can get. Even my, "I'm going to keep this short and sweet," posts end up being max characters haha.

Let's just start with the here and now. We're all going through this pandemic across the globe. It's horrific and scary and crazy and gives me anxiety. I keep the anxiety and stress at bay by working out. I've gotten into the habit of waking up early to get it out of the way and start my day on a positive note. I am NOT someone who likes to wake up earlier than I have to, but I found that even being home all day and not having to commute to and from work, I was struggling to find the time to fit it in. I'd say I'd take a lunch break and use it to work out, but I ended up just working through it with high priorty projects that needed to be done ASAP. By the time I was done with work for the day, it was late and I was too tired to do anything but eat dinner and go to bed.

Mind you, the only reason I've been able to get out of bed is because I decided to set up a Zoom call with some of my BB teammates to help keep me accountable. When the alarm went off, even if I was tired and wanted to do my usual snooze for an hour, I remembered that people were waiting for me. I set up the dang thing, I couldn't skip it. So, that's what has gotten me motivated/determined to make it work. Plus, I began to see the effects of getting the endorphins going in the morning can do on the day. I felt more productive and and focused and less likely to stress out.

I haven't left the house since the shelter in place was announced except to talk the puppy twice and then to the grocery store/drop off at my moms because I wouldn't let her go to the store herself. In all honesty, I'm digging the working remote 100%, as long as everyone else is too. I know I can't do it once folks are back in the office because it's a better way to be in the know on projects and keep a better connection with colleagues, but I will definitely be keeping a day or two remote because I am very productive from home and it'll be better for my sanity to not have to make the drive every single day.

I think I'll leave it at that for now, otherwise this draft will continue to sit here and never get posted haha. More to come, but I hope everyone is staying safe, healthy, and keeping your mindset in a good place during all of this (it can be really tough sometimes... all the time).